Coloring...and painting...

So, Tim and I went to Lowe's to look at some (hopefully dramatic) colors for the bedroom to go with our white comforter. I had to politely tell my wonderful husband that I didn't want to bedroom to be "girly!" He kept picking out these feminine shades...I want DRAMATIC, sexy, cozy. I'm not much on powder blue, dear.

Car trouble...

I don't want to buy a new car!!! I much prefer life without a car payment!!! However, Tim's radiator just threw up all over the engine today, and we don't yet know why, but goodness, that poor little car has 150K on its record. My car (just a little over 100K) tears up to the tune of 600 big ones about every 6 months (now, mine is leaking $30/jug antifreeze). Tim would say it's every 3 months. I'll stick to my story. We wanted to finish the area in the attic over the garage, but it's looking like we may have to put that moolah into a new car instead. Yuck. The problem is we desperately need something to be able to do some minor hauling (Tim is really wanting an Honda Element SC) since we're here in Memphis and most of my friends left Memphis like bats out of hell after graduation. Except me and Tim. We stayed. Something about Memphis suckered us in. I think it's the 550 miles that separate us from East TN, actually. Don't get me wrong. I miss our friends....and I miss my family too....but life here is much simpler for us.

Tim is finally going to get Wednesdays off so we will have a day together. It really stinks being on opposite schedules. I work 10am-5pm, and he works 1pm-9pm. We rarely have time to do anything more than go out to eat together. Oh well. We'll find a way to make it work. I only hope we don't do this for the rest of our lives.

I'm soo excited...we finally decided on bedroom linens...and they're stark WHITE. With some little circles. We're going for a modern look, so I plan on painting the walls a dramatic color, probably a deep grey-blue, who knows how long that'll take for that final decision. I was so excited I found this set for 100 bucks. I know you're excited too. This is a sort of look I'm going for: here.

Just a random FYI: when visiting your eye doctor, or any other for that matter...please brush your teeth and/or use some gum. I've had some patients lately whose breath has over-powered the room. I thought I was going to pass out today from holding MINE. Not good. Less oxygen to the brain=not necessarily such a great eye exam.

New Hobby

Check out www.ted.com it's awesome, and will certainly make you think.

I wish I was a vegetarian...

I really wish I could. But the occasional appeal of a steak, salad and baked potato just won't let me do it. I do not think it is necessarily wrong to eat meat, I just have a problem with way animals are raised for food. Yes, I think it is inhumane, but pass the steak sauce please. I've been pondering our society as it is today, all techy, geeky, lazy, trashy. This is not what being on the Earth was suppose to be. Think for a moment. Way back when, (not millions of years, but a couple hundred) when we weren't dependent on gas for mobility or energy. People lived near where they worked, they walked, or rode their horse. Time wasn't as much an issue. People did die earlier secondary to poor sanitation, but is it possible that time was slower?? Remember what it was like when you were 10, and you couldn't wait until the afternoon cartoons came on...time was flying by for working adults, scrambling, trying to make a buck and keep up with the Joneses, multi-tasking, but for the 10 year-old, it was slow. Painfully slow at times. SO, what if living to 50 in 1820 felt like living to 80 today? Don't get me wrong, I think that I would take 80 over 50, but what about quality?? What about a slower life with fewer expectations, and not so self-centered. What about life that's based on survival itself, versus how well one plays to another's tune?

I'm getting muffled. I want to be a better person. I want to follow through, I want to sit outside and take a deep breath and just be content.

Idiocracy

Have any of you seen this movie?? It's a really smart, but stupid movie. (SPOILERS AHEAD) The basic theme is that people with higher IQ's keep putting off having kids, while all the "less intelligent" people are out multiplying left and right. Eventually, you end up with a bunch of people with little smarts. Really, the opposite of what Darwin had intended in natural selection. So, these stupid people get stupider ;) and trash the planet. I am generally not one for simply "funny" movies. I don't want to be pretentious, but, I LIKE to think when I watch a movie, or excuse me, I suppose I prefer "films." But this is one funny movie with a point. Now granted, there are references to stupid, sex jokes that have been done and done and done and done. But in the context of this movie, it points out how ridiculous those jokes are, and highlights the kind of people who just keep on thinking those jokes are funny.

Fall has me feeling down...

Autumn is a beautiful time of year. But for me, it's just kinda sad. No matter how much I look at pretty leaves, I always feel like everything is slowing dying all around me. It makes me very, oh, melancholy I guess. It's especially hard this year since I'm not going back to school. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy my work. I have however, been conditioned to go to school in the fall. That's what I do. So now, I'm here at home, doing the same things I have been doing, and I have to face a life that is going to be the same all year around. That's just weird...something has really got me down. I'm just plain ol' sad with no real excuse. I'm sure I'll feel better soon, maybe even in a few minutes (hey, it's possible), but I'm just wondering if any of you ever just really feel down for no really good reason?

Did anyone see the moon tonight? It was just beautiful, I suppose we are still in the "harvest moon." I love to look at the moon. And yes, I do think there could be other life out there in space. I truly hope so. Seriously, wouldn't that just be so neat?? What other life-forms could God have made?? Space is sooo cool...I know that God is with us here, but I can't help but think of him as being "out there." In my mind, space is soooo huge...and when I think about God being in every corner of it...that just makes Him even larger in my mind.

On to a random thought: when I was very little, oh, I don't know, 5 or 6 or so...I used to picture God as this big man with a beard wearing over-alls (why? I don't know, that's what everyone wore when I was little) and he was always standing in my mind propped up against a mountain, with one arm resting on the very crest. I have no idea where this came from, but it obviously still sticks with me today.

I just feel like rambling tonight, and this seems to be helping my mood. We finally have some birds out in the front of the house, and I'm sooo excited. I love to hear and watch birds playing. I was worried for awhile, we had no visitors at the feeder. While we were at the apt, I had many "regulars" at the bird feeder, and at least 2 sets of babies right on our porch. Our porch was right outside the bedroom, so every morning I'd wake up to the birds just chirping away. Hopefully we'll have that again.

Coda is settling into the new house pretty well. She is still just very jumpy at the slightest noise, but that's fairly normal for her. She's very high-strung. Tim would say she got that from me.

Days off...

Since my cold persisted, I wound up having 4 days off work in a row. And what have I accomplished?? Not a lot. I really miss the days of being a kid...when I was sick as a kid I never thought I was missing out on anything except my math (or other) homework...and really, how much did that matter?? The day would be spent sleeping and watching TV, and when I felt good enough, maybe I'd play some Nintendo. Now, sick days are spent lying on the couch, wallowing in self-pity, wishing I felt good enough to just get up and go to work so I can make some money, or at least felt good enough to get some stuff done around the house. And this incredible sense of guilt, just for not going to work. Oh well, I'm feeling fine now, and it's time to go back in the morning. Hope my patients are all in a good mood.

Do any of you have a schedule that completely differs from your spouse/significant other?? Tim and I are never home at the same time, or rather, when he's home, I'm asleep, and when I'm at work, he's at home. I thought this was a decent arrangement for awhile. I'm starting to realize it stinks. I know you all ("you all" being anyone reading this ridiculously boring post) don't want me to get all mushy...but it's nice to say something about it once in awhile.

So, pics to come soon of our house....just as soon as Tim tells me where the camera charger is...

Home Owner

Tim and I purchased our first house on Aug 11, we moved in the weekend of Aug 15. I had no idea just how much apartment life was weighing me down. I feel better about life in general. No more worrying about waking up the neighbors, or having the bass too loud on the TV. It's such a strange feeling. I moved out of the 'rents home the day I turned 18, and have been in apts/campus living for all of that. Having a house is so wonderful!! For those of you out there that think you can't do it, try harder! It's so worth it!!

On a second note, my drive to work is a little longer (~15 mins), but I can hardly complain about that aspect. What does create problems for me is the road-rage I am experiencing on my trip home from the office. People drive me NUTS on Walnut Grove. They drive like idiots in the fast lane, side-by-side the cars in the right lane...with 15 cars stuck behind. I'm sooo mad when I get home I could spit. It takes me about an hour to calm down. Why can't people just drive correctly and courteously??

Beer...yuck!

So, I am in, like, year two, or something, trying to develop a taste for beer. ANY beer. Tim and I are not big drinkers, so it's not like I wanna go out and get plastered. I just don't understand why that I can eat just about any food and appreciate it, and one little swig of beer makes me wanna turn my mouth inside out and have it steam cleaned. It's so nasty, I don't even like to smell it on the breath of my buds (sorry guys, it's true), or for goodness sakes those nasty overly-drunk people staggering around at parties. It's NASTY!

I just don't understand it. We've tried a few, liqour is just so much more tasty...you can do so much with it...but beer...other than "beer-butt chicken" and bbq sauces..what else is beer good for, besides hiding perfectly sweet minty breath and getting one drunk cheaply?? Maybe it's because I'm beyond binge drinking...I want to catch my not-quite-truly-a-buzz on a tasty beverage.

I'm still trying. I'm not sure when I will give up, but for now, I will drink my kahlua and milk to wind down at night, or I'll make myself a nice tequila slushie on a hot day.

I HAVE A JOB!!!

Well, it's official. I received the call today, and I've accepted a position with Dr. Richard Buck and Associates. I'll be working in the Oak Court Mall. I couldn't be more excited. My days of borrowing money are over!! I just can't explain how excited I am to finally be making my OWN way in this world!! Don't worry taxpayers, I am going to do everything in my power NOT to default on my loans, and hopefully, I'll have a long, healthy working life in which I'll be paying my taxes in order for someone else to do the same. Nothing is going to ruin this day!!

Lack of motivation!

I'm suffering from a major lack of motivation lately. I think it's because I'm out of school now, and I don't really have anything to take up my time, as I'm normally a busy person. Tim and I are stuck in limbo since I'm waiting on job issues to come through, so we can't even decide where we're going to live, if we're even going to rent or buy...my life is on hold right now and it's driving me crazy!!